How God Works 2.0

When I was a little girl, five or six years of age, I wanted to surprise my mother with a gift and brought her a dead bird I gathered while playing outdoors. (I am a Leo after all, and dropping the dead birds at your owners' feet is a cat love language). Mom was leaning over a bed, changing the sheets. My "love" gift caught Mom unaware, and, in her fright, she proffered a blood-curdling scream. I, in turn, dropped the bird, turned around and ran through a glass door. That was before safety glass was required on doors.

I really don't remember anything more about that experience. However, the trickle-down from that micro-trauma was ginormous and affected my psyche for more than twenty-five years.

Unbeknownst to my conscious mind, I became fraught with "bird" fear. I first became conscious of the bird fear when I, as a real estate agent, would be in people's houses who had a bird when meeting with them about selling their home. I noticed my hands would become sweaty. I had NEVER experienced that form of physical neurological anxiety before. My body was experiencing hot flashes and heart palpitations at every house where there was a bird(s) in a cage. I did not understand what was physiologically happening to me. However, I remember similar physiological reactions when in the birdhouse at the zoo and at pet stores. Fear can grip us without knowing why, as I soon learned. What was the root of this bird fear?

I was around thirty when by chance, at a family function, my mother asked me if I remembered running through a glass storm door after dropping a dead bird on the bed she was making up?

Bingo!

The final piece of the bird fear puzzle fell into place. By chance (oh, let's be real, there is no such thing as chance), I discovered the core "driver" that triggered my body's biological response to birds on an unconscious level, the automatic emotional trigger that my subconscious mind alerted my body to.  The fact that: birds mean danger, hurt, damage. Red alert. Prepare for flight (no pun intended).

How the mental and emotional mind-bodies are always on alert and working to protect the emotional/mental aspects of the human being is still not fully understood. In my case, my immune system, because of the fear I felt (my mother's fear, really), created an automatic biological "grid" response that increased my adrenalin level (sweaty hands, hot flashes, etc.) and kicked in every time I was near a bird – any bird.

Now aware, what do I do? I did not like losing control of my physical body over a very small, feathery creature who has no boundaries. I prayed (literally) to find a solution to the bird fear I was experiencing. It's really amazing how the Universe stepped up to the plate in response.

It was no accident that in the same year of that family function of mom-assisted-self-discovery that two different breeds of birds nested in my yard. First, a set of doves nested within three feet of my front door in a pine tree. Then about ten feet further out from the front door, a pair of very noisy robins built a nest eight feet high into a birch tree. The groundwork was being laid out ---- a result of my prayers to heal my fear of birds.

Additionally, not long after the family gathering, a friend knocked on the door early one Sunday morning carrying a bird cage stuffed with two live parakeets. Klaus was moving out of state. He said, "I thought you could take care of my birds," I froze. Klaus had gifted three beautiful plants to me just a few days earlier, what could I say? Right then and there, I decided I would take charge of the bird fear. So, I accepted ownership of the bird cage and bird paraphernalia and, for six months, would sit in front of that bird cage and love on those birds until I became free of those unwanted, automatic physiological responses. (Hint-the message here is to lean into the fear).

This is how God works! One makes a decision (intention) about something, and the Universe sets out to provide everything necessary to bring the intention to fruition. In my case it was to eliminate my fear of birds. Soul waits, waits and waits some more for the spirit-being-having-a-human-experience (that’s us) to CONSCIOUSLY declare or affirm a conscious change to spark a different result from unwanted patterns. When an intention is created, Soul provides all the potential opportunities and details to alter the subconscious mind and help one move to a higher consciousness.  In my case things like close-by nesting birds, friends delivering birds to my house like a pizza gets delivered and so forth provided the “potential” for me to change. I took the bait. Do you?

Part of the spark to my desire to heal a past trauma was watching the birds nesting outside my door. The discovery of how dramatically different the two nest constructions were in my yard for the two different bird species was fascinating. The robin's nest was constructed to withstand an atomic blast while the dove’s nest was haphazardly tossed together. Most likely, this is because the parenting skills between the two species were vastly spectral; the robins left their young alone in the nest all day as they scrounged for their food, while one of the dove parents NEVER left their hatchlings alone, alternating their “nursery” time. I began to see the difference in mothering skills, but that's another blog for another day. The fact that I could observe the birds so closely without fear symptoms striking was a great improvement.

Because of Klaus's gift of the two parakeets and my six-month sabbatical loving on the birds, I began to feel safe around birds. To feel safe means fear is eliminated; no auto fear, no adrenaline rushes. Today, I love, love, love birds. I own many books about birds and birds are a main focus of my photography. I am still stymied about why I needed a "fear elimination" experience about a subject I have come to love so much. Maybe without the fear, I would have never given birds another thought. My main totem is a great blue heron. I can't even imagine cringing in fear when a great blue heron crosses my path, which is frequent.

What's in your subconscious mind that needs a look-see?

Affirmation – I can move from fear to freedom. . .  the choice is always mine.

P.S. My husband Howard and I went on a rather lengthy bike ride yesterday where we were accompanied for about a mile by a squawking black and white bird, I've never seen before. This morning I went through my Birds of North America book twice, looking for the species – twice. It wasn't until the second tour of the book and over an hour later when I heard the little voice inside say, "Write your bird story of overcoming fear with conscious change." Hope you're glad I listened.

“I'm Catherine Wilcox, working to help others see that God is in all things, all the time, through conscious change and self-healing.”

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Catherine Wilcox is a Conscious Change Coach, Mentor, emotional intuitive and Writer. If you like what you read here, then you may enjoy one of her Published Books:

·         God is in the Details, Little stories to nourish your faith

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·         God is in the Details 2.0 (COMING SOON)

·         Sacred Space (COMING SOON)

·         Sacred Relationship (COMING SOON)

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·         Chakra Speak, The Language of Chakras

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